updated 25-02-2016-03

The first glasses

17-18 years of hardship by not being able to see properly.

At same time a truthful story about what it felt like 6 years old to get glasses.

Finding.

Even here after many years, after I started to wear glasses all the time. I remember clearly as 6 years old when I was told to a medical examination that I might need glasses. The doctor then referred my mother and me to an eye specialist.

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Yes, so we sat suddenly there, in the waiting room at the eye doctor.

There was more kids like me, waiting to come in to him, some with glasses on.

They talked and talked mothers in between on how strict eye doctor was, and that he always wrote out some strong glasses for children, so they were forced to go with glasses on afterwards.

Then my name ben called.

In and get dripped eyes and looked again, and wait. I thought enough though most of it was something that did not matter to me.

Everything was now completely blurred, and back in for the eye exam, and so was the fact that I needed glasses.

Eye doctor told my mother that I was pretty farsighted. Remember that the strength in my first glasses were 3.25 in both eyes and some astigmatism.

I understood that the eye doctor told my mother that I could always start using glasses when I would watch television, read, drawing, and should see something close to or play with Lego and Tekno. Which was something with some very small screws, and thus I could get used to using them. He also said that we should go to an optician about once a year, then the first few years, then to measure eyesight, as it could very easily change both ways the first year. Here I made myself of course no thought to how it would feel to have to wear glasses, and certainly not to go with them on all the time. On the way home from the eye doctor in Bellahøj, that we went to the optician in Husum with the recipe and find appropriate glasses, and it became clear plastic glasses with elastic metal temples down and around behind the ears. It was not so bad to try the glasses without glass, but it was still very strange to put something in front of the eyes and something tightened around his ears. The optician told nothing about that I should go with them when he had put the lenses in, although it was his proposal that it should be glasses that sat firmly when it was for children, so it was probably an ulterior motive at!

This put otherwise not so many thoughts going with me; but that it was probably not so nice going on, and that using glasses maybe was not as fancy.

I knew, no one in my family or among my parents' friends and my playmates who used glasses right at the time. Only my grandmother, and saw an uncle that we almost never saw, they were both very farsighted, I found out later, and that my mother certainly also has pushed for glasses for a long time, and that she was also far-sighted, but this I was completely unaware of at this time.

The home we talked not about my need for glasses at dinner, when my father came home that day, nor the next, as I remember it, but my parents have probably talked about this at some point.

About a week after having his glasses so downloaded for optician and tested. Here, I think it was by walking right up to me that something should happen, which was uncomfortable.

The optician retrieved the bag with the glasses in the back room and took them off and polished them and put them looked at me. Jo everything was clear and big when I saw on the blackboard as he gave me his hand I think, but also very strange and it felt like while I was dizzy when I looked through the shop window and around the store. Then I see myself in a mirror. Oh, the big eyes behind the thick round shiny glasses, and I did not seem that they looked like the glasses I tried the week before, and I saw all wrong with them.

And here I was probably the greatest shock and where it dawned on me that those "I should not go on" - so of them again, but they were hardly to go, with the temples that surrounded the ears, and not with one hand. It felt, almost like I was strangled by them.

My mother paid, and I remember the glasses lay on the disc and shone in the light, as the optician then said very firmly that the glasses should I use and wear immediately, with the strength they had, that I could handle myself in school. The  Optician, took the glasses on the counter and would give them to me, for now I should even try to take them on.

I remember that I stepped back behind my mother, and froze in terror at the thought that I should take the glasses back. Yes, and the thought of it that would show me with them in the family, and especially for my playmates and then the giddy sensation of having them on.

It made me completely terrified and speechless with fright. And then I had totally unprepared for this to happen, mostly because we had not even talked about anything like that at home, about the fact that I may have to use or wear glasses.

But my mom said so quickly that the eye doctor had told that they should only be used to read with "So those we try at home." I felt really saved now - I thought. The optician then put the glasses in an eyeglass case, and said again that my eyes had all the best that I had them, and that I would quickly become familiar with to go with them. He then took a bag and put them in that I carried them home. My legs still shaking under me with fear when we left the store. And still no word about my new glasses at home or try them there, or show my dad them. I was actually good to pass with this, at the time. And I put then glasses in a drawer in my room and hoped true also to this, I could just forget about the future. But no, it was not true.

I heard then little about my glasses, to whom I try to go on, just once in a while at any time. I really believe that my parents had some kind of anxiety that I would need the glasses, and this anxiety was certainly directly transferred to me.

My parents without talking everything on my glasses to death, and made it perhaps unconsciously to my own problem!

I later here recently found an account book from 1955, when my mother has noted, the purchase of glasses kr. 9.84 and the time fits with the month of September when I got the first glasses. What health insurance then gave grants I am not aware today!

What my parents forgot.

First my parents had to have explained to me that maybe I should go with glasses on, already since our doctor diagnosed that I had forwarded to the eye doctor, and what it would mean for me, so it came as a surprise when or if we ended up with the optician to buy glasses for me. And otherwise told and talked openly about how wonderful it would be for me to get to see very well and usually when we had to download and try the new glasses, and that it was not uncomfortable to walk on.

And here, my mother could also just as well have told me that she also had glasses, and here she had perhaps taken them on at home, so I could see that that was quite ok, not that I suddenly was the only one in us who did it!

My parents had the same time have told everyone in the family, neighbors and friends that now I wear glasses. Then had all been prepared that when I subsequently showed me with them, and so there should not be a lot of questions as to why I now suddenly came with them.

And so here optician and after his advice was to my mother, of course, having said that, they are as nice and they look good on you and those you obviously have on immediately, at least until we get home to try of them.

When we got home, I should have had the message that I should keep them at home in our apartment, and could then play in my room or I could also go out and play, just that I had them up to my dad came home.

Then we should then have supper all three together, where I had them on, so my father had seen me right with glasses on. And here was he of course also have praised me for how nice they were to me and told how happy I would be to be able to see properly. Throughout my youth.

Yes so had my closest course also accepted that I had them on, and then could I be allowed to take them off until we were watching TV. This I had enough already discovered how well I now see, when I had the glasses on.

It also had surely then been much easier to understand the need to use glasses then, and now there was not any mystery or discomfort at me to take them on. Especially when I was at home together amongst my family. And then my parents of course, otherwise just have done it as an eye doctor had said that every time that I had something in the process of playing, drawing or we would watch television, so there was only one way "on the glasses" also just no matter who was present of playmates, family or friends. Then it was quickly becoming a habit.

There was not very many who had television at the time, so there was almost always some who were allowed to watch with us. Everyone around me, had now also knew that I needed glasses. Then I had certainly at a time eventually forgotten to take them off, and suddenly had them on. Even when I rented outdoors with my playmates, (My best playmate got glasses almost simultaneously, see below :) and here I had already found out that it was fine to have them on all the time, and these had been the best of them for me. I did so not gone in my own world, and built the anxiety and the strange images up how bad it would be for me to show me with the glasses on, and all the mystique about them that was and became more and more self-sustaining, and made it so hard for me!

Then had no not at all interested in my need for glasses, Yes, and then I had, the year after been quite school ready with them from the start.

My parents could also have chosen the hard way, which of course had been as good, that the first day at the optician to do as he said that the glasses should I obviously go on from the start, as it just had to be that way. And I too was already prepared that it might happen when the glasses had to be fetched from the optician, for it had we have also talked about the home and family and friends and playmates too was all prepared for that now I continue to walk with Glasses on! And now my mother and father just make sure from the other day that I had them, that I got up in the morning I went to bed at night. Yes, very simple, and very shortly after it would not have been so normal for me. And these had still been much better than everything I later had to go through!

I remember a remark that my father otherwise often said to me "that my will was sitting in his trouser pocket" in while he had his right hand in it, but now he had apparently not the will!

My playmate got glasses.

I had a playmate my age, and he was also an only child like me, who lived a few wells from me and he came suddenly with glasses and told us playmates that it was because he saw so well without after he also had been on a trip with the eye doctor.

It was virtually the same time and with very few days that I got my glasses and apparently I was at least as farsighted as he, but his parents chose for him to follow opticians advice, and he got her on it immediately.

He should start at a school other than the one I had to go on.

I thought a lot about when I heard that some of colleagues tease him with big eyes he had behind his glasses. Hinke stones, four-eyes, cobra and Belfast eye and lenses as Cola bottoms, it came only later, but this was some of the words that were used, which of course I also feared that that would be used around my glasses when it came out I also used glasses. All this I thought of while that my glasses were in a drawer in my room.

But what I remember was that the teasing did not last very long. I feared at the same time that when he initially came to visit me that my mother would tell me something that I also had glasses, but she did not.

Remember also that we once ran and played and suddenly he fell and one of his lenses shattered on the tiles. Yes it was before plastic tubes' time, and he was terribly sorry and would have to have new glass in his eye, and it took several days before he again had his glasses on.

And again, it commented my mother nor that he was now without glasses. I dared not tell him about my glasses, since he also knew our common playmates and think if he were to tell you that I also needed and had glasses.

I have often thought then that it was strange that my mother did not take the opportunity to immediately say to me, and at the same time follow your optician's advice that I should also use my glasses. So we had been 2 while there were glasses that almost always played together, and it had perhaps taken the most attention from our other comrades then as 6 year old. And then this story has never been topical for me. But that was then not be.

I thought most deep down still even at that it was something that would go by itself, because I did not know better, with this having to use glasses at the time and was still thinking not so much that my glasses were in drawer in my room. But fear of taking them on and show me with glasses, I had constantly at heart. This fear grew in me, but I took them, however, and to be when I was alone in my room and walked around with them, and then in a Donald Duck magazine and snuck over to the window to look down on the street behind the curtain,  everything was very clear. And still a little dizzy feeling but much smaller, by looking far away.

Back to school

It went well barely a year from the visit to the eye doctor until when I started school, Catholic Central School on Nørrebrogade / Fælledvej. Without the glasses were used, and only by my own small steps, and I was, as previously mentioned nor encouraged to use them.

I was now 7 years and in August, began school, my mother asked so suddenly I had to put my glasses in my new school bag, as we stood outside the school and was going to walk into. But no, they were at home ... but she said the first day, you probably do not need them anyway. The next day the glasses put in the school bag. The parents were not inside the school class the next day, so my mother came back after school and followed me home. The glasses did not come out of her bag that day, and how it also went afterwards. No one in my class had glasses in the beginning, so I even took the decision that it had, I probably do not need; but the glasses I had but faithfully every day in my satchel.

My mother had apparently not told the teachers that I had to wear glasses during class, they would have probably said to me that I should remember to take them on, but no one said anything about this to me.

New glasses again - and still no check.

As the years and the time went by, I got new glasses each approximately one and a half years. Although my parents are still not interested in whether I used the glasses, even when we were sitting in the living room and watched television, or when I read or played, the glasses mentioned that the ophthalmologist else had told my mother.

Although I moved my chair pretty close to the small television that existed then, and my mother asked also once I could see without glasses which I replied "Orc yes ..." and of course it was a day when there were others present. But it was as if my mother still had noted that the new glasses I should have like clothes that I grew out of. Eye doctor had of course also said that about a year after I should have checked my eyes again at an optician. Yes, she thought well that I used glasses at school! And then off to the eye test at the optician with glasses in her bag. And so choose new glasses again, which she also helped to choose, they were, however, like the first, but without elastic rods and more brown than the nose, and they were almost identical to my play mate glasses. The slides were also a tad stronger and so it happened also on subsequent visits, so my vision was definitely not better as the years passed.

Here I had perhaps realized that I had the best of using the glasses, but I had not the courage to show me with them. And still the same at home. Neither my mother or father asked right into I used glasses at school, and it was also somewhat outside, but I remember when my mother asked a few times that I have now used them in school and I answered "Yes , yes, of course "and so no more talk about them. And no control if I really used them.

Again, the same also played out at the optician when we downloaded the new glasses, to whom I was then of course go on all the time .... But it overheard my mother again. In the intervening period of optician visit, I went almost always with an inner fear of my mother suddenly one day and told me that now I had to take them on and keep them on the future, for I knew really well that it is not was really good before it happened.

Yes, using glasses, was something privately for myself. I used the glasses more and more when I was alone in my room and dizziness feeling was now completely disappeared. When I was doing my homework behind a closed door in my room and when I was home alone, and there was no playmates to visit, I took almost always my glasses on, and enjoyed the right to move freely around the apartment. For I was happiest to have them on as time passed. Yes and I was also getting older and more proven, but still it having to show me with them, and that I could not overcome.

In the morning I smuggled them many times with the bathroom and enjoyed now really feel by being able to see clearly. And then look at myself in the mirror with glasses and say to myself "now I keep them in the kitchen to eat breakfast and then saw in school so just being able to wear them all day" Yes, and not least the loading them on the glass shelf in while I was taking a shower. But No it was not, they were taken by just before I opened the bathroom door.

It was like still an obsession for me, having to show me with glasses on someone I knew, even for my mom and dad.

Often thought how easy my playmate from neighboring entryway had it. Now that he had used his glasses for several years, and now he had no trouble seeing, and it went to him very well in the school he attended.

Once we sat together in his room, he asked me if I wanted to try his glasses, I hesitated and took them looked at, and was now quite sure that my own glasses was stronger than his. So with them again, I saw otherwise fairly with them, but said I was dizzy from having them. I'd actually like here to tell my secret to him that I also had glasses.

But he then said that I looked funny with glasses on and it did certainly not easier for me to take my own glasses after the attempt, let alone tell him about my need for them. I also thought that he looked strange and wrong without glasses. Here, I also believe that it dawned on me that having to use glasses enough was something I had to turn to, this problem did not disappear by itself.

Another thought that I often had and still have is that if I had had brothers, so I could not hide the need to use my glasses for long in my school, and especially not at home. They had enough "gossiped" to all those I knew about my problem with that I could not see without glasses and certainly also to our parents if I did not use them. By then my problem probably already been solved already in the first school.

Also think of all the years I've missed all that my friends went to, for example scout because I so badly. I could not read and see the drawings showing the things we should do. So there I was only a very short time. Also when I was at camp and other activities and experiences that the school otherwise gave us children, and there was also something then called School Bio I did not get the full benefit of.

New Optican and new glasses!

Increase the processor when my mother said that it was now time for new glasses, was also a very unpleasant experience, every time being ordered to the optician and then to the new eye test Here came my bad conscience up that I did not use my glasses at school . And then the eye exam, where I could not cheat anyone with regard to my vision, and again had to listen to the optician tell my mother and me how important it was for me that I used the glasses, it was like I closed completely , and I also hoped this time that my mother once overheard what he said, and I think that she really did. But deep down, I think that I myself, was to understand the necessity of having to use glasses. But I thought even that my world would here have been dropped completely together if my mother suddenly had said that now I keep the new glasses on and go with them in the future. And I felt really that this would be a terrible harsh punishment for me, and had now reached, it would have been much better for me if I had been forced to use them, the day I got the first glasses.

Then I thought to myself that next time I was forced to have new glasses again, then it should take place at a different optician, it could be that this would be better for me in connection with the eye exam. When the day came, I persuaded my mother that it would take place at the optician in City, Herlev, close to her work. So my old glasses were put in my mother's bag and go. My mother always went to work even when she should act in City, Herlev, and I pulled my bike there. And here was my mother only to choose the new and then gave my old glasses to the optician. The choice was to completely brown rectangular instead of round, a little more of a junior / adult model, and then she went on to work.

Visual test performed optician and myself. Here it was exactly the same result, but again with an increase of strength, and I had probably now recognize that it was absolutely correct. He told me here that my vision at least was better that I did not go with them on every day. He also said that he could not understand that I had them on when I came with my mother, the glasses should I go on all the time. And he asked me when I had the first? I had of course recognize that it was probably about 5 - 6 years ago. Then he said to me that I should take my glasses on now with the same and keep them until I could pick up the new order that was completely wrong outside. But this I replied that I would wait until I could get the new. It is understood he really did not "and said" the sooner the better for your own sake and that it was not so bad to go with the glasses on, and then he said that he would order the glasses right away, so I could get them quickly so you can pick them up for a week just after dinner! I told him as "the lie" that I only had used the glasses during class at school, so I should of course get used to the idea of ​​going with them, and put them as little hesitant back in spectacles. But as vas I remember it, I'd most like here to take them on right away and then keep them on, because he had really told me how important it was for me that I should use the glasses now, but no when my mother and I had to get the new glasses, so was I also need to have them on again, and then I had also need to keep them on until then at home, and I could not I decide to, and completely manageable so right off the cuff!

"What if my mother had been there, and even had heard it he told me that everything had been completed already, and it may well be that I had been given until the new glasses have to be found to take them on but it would have been determined! And there were probably at home being talked about that I next week to go with the glasses on from now on. Maybe my parents now, asked me that I should take my current glasses on when I was at home in our apartment. For now, I could well exert me to wear them until I had to pick up the new!

I would also really like to see myself the day when the new glasses had to be fetched that I could just as well keep my old glasses on when we left for Herlev for now it was settled, and there was no way back without glasses on when we got home, the difference was not anything more than that it was brand new glasses, which I had on, and they had to be taken off before than I went to bed in the evening, and then it was back on the  next morning, and that was that now every day from now! It was really good for me! "

It was also probably the first time that I was looking forward a little, and looked forward to that I should download the new glasses. I was just told my mother that they were finished about a week and could then be retrieved after dinner. Also believe that I was getting so close, if we do at home had talked about it, and I was inspired and pushed just a little of my parents, to take the new glasses on when my mother and I had to pick them up optician, so then it had happened! - But they did not know what the optician had told me that I heard, of course, nothing about it! - Yes, and the time was approaching and I was thinking more and more that this time did I not off the hook, and that I did not have to go with them at this time, and now I had actually set myself that it probably was such with all the optician had said to me, and when my mother then got the same historie.- But when the day came where they had to fetch my mother said suddenly to me "that she had to work all the day, when her colleague she shared working with had been ill, so the glasses can you even pick up in the afternoon! and then you get money to pay with. " Phew, that was close, I thought. - Now, the election was suddenly my own! " Terrible"!

I felt at first really lucky, but also very insecure. But took so alone away from Herlev by bicycle to fetch them. When he had adapted them to me, he said that I expected that, "We two have the agreement on the glasses you must of course keep on, from now on, for now it does not go further without", he said while they were really nice to me, and that I would be really happy to go with them in the future. As he said, "he could simply not understand that I had to cope me earlier without them on a daily basis. I replied that it was nice to get them on and simultaneously be able to see properly, and that I should probably keep them on from now. Although I deep down probably thought that it was hard for me to have it, "when it was now only optician and I knew that, 'yes, it was very tempting for me it was the easy solution lying only, do not tell anything at home!

Yes, and here I had now chosen by the optician, and I was probably somewhat shocked that it was so close that I should have left the optician with glasses on, without there was no other way, "and fortunate" or, was it? My mother was not helping to get the new glasses, or was involved in the visual test. For with this clear opinion, from the optician, he had certainly told my mother that, my vision had changed significantly, since the visit for the first time at the eye doctor, so she had to understand that I should use and wear my glasses from now on, or rather, had been started with it several years ago (yes, and so I had not escaped from there without glasses, and this had indeed been a really good time for me now. Although it probably would have been a little difficult for me to understand and accept the first.) After this summer, I had the start of a new school, and these had been perfect I had spent the summer with my new glasses as habituation, and so began there in early August, and among new schoolmates. And, it is that it was about to be holiday time and many of my comrades were on vacation, and we had to go even on vacation.

I too had to admit that it was nice enough to see really well, with the new glasses on, everything inside the store was like more evident than with the old glasses!  I thought to keep them on until I got home and then, for I thought it was probably the best thing for me. When I walked out the door from the optician and had to have my bike, came the doubt. I thought at the same time when I came out of there, everything seemed so terribly large outside and my legs shook under me, just as six years earlier when I left the optician in Husum. I feared now that I now came to meet someone from home I knew.

I could not grasp, and the fact that I was bicycling past where my mother worked, and what if she saw me with the glasses on, so then I had to continue to wear them when she came home, and what would she say to it when she came home from work and saw me with them, or if I had regrets and taken them off? And I now had even decided to keep them on, (but it was the optician who had said that I should go with them now) but everything was completely impossible for me. Yes, here I had really need support and help to make the right decision, so there had been no way back without glasses. So I kept them only until I reached a little way away from the store, and so of them again. Yes, I know that I chose wrong, and again I postponed it to take my glasses on. But when I got home, I took them nonetheless immediately back on and kept them on until my mother put the key in the front door. "And I told myself repeatedly that I had to go with them now, and that it did not go without them"! But then I had to take them off and put them back in the desk drawer, I simply could not keep them on. Again I told nothing to my parents about everything, what the optician had told me that I now have, and had to go with my new glasses! Although my mother asked about the new glasses were neat, and here I replied simply, yes fine, and not more talk about them, yes and still no talk of them when my father came home.

Strangely, with all the silence and the few words about my glasses!

Or was it just me because that corresponded in a syllable words?

Ah, yes, I had but here told my mother what the optician said, and then kept them on, and shown me her new glasses on, and what she had actually said this? Maybe they were neat, and them I was indeed so need to keep in the future! Yes I would have also had them on when my father came home - and yes, my father, he had probably said the same thing. "This is how, and saw them retain just the future"! But the idea of ​​telling this, it got shivers down my spine out of fear.

The best thing that could have happened to me that day and the coming future, had indeed been that if my mother was taken to the optician to get the new glasses, and had the time, or taken the time to attend the eye test as I even had to make! I could also just have done as the optician asked me after the eye exam, to keep my old glasses on, and then go home and tell the truth about that that was necessary now for me to go with them in the future.

Yes it would have already been completed once and for all.

Unbelievable that I constantly withstand, exposing the uncomfortable decisions about the glasses again and again, and so long!

And why was I so afraid to have, or take my glasses on when my parents were present?

Yes, and why my parents were so taciturn about my glasses?

Or was it my friends neighbors and family I was afraid to meet with them?

And as I grew up it became more and more difficult for me to take them on!

It is also really incredible that external coincidences can have such important effects on one's life and future, I am thinking of my mother's colleague who was sick, just the day when we had to pick up the new brillerhos optician.

Subsequent visits to the optician I was now allowed to make alone and took out every time my glasses on right outside the store before I went in, and never heard more from him about it, and I do not think he doubted other than that I now went with them now, and he always asked if I was still happy to go with my glasses on? "For it was you indeed very slow to get you taken together" And I continued to lie about my usage of the glasses!

"Indeed, I was very happy after the hand that I had gotten used to it, I answered." And when the strength rose, he asked me to come again, to a half-control and so I did, still the subsequent few years. But as time passed, and spent still no glasses! Subsequently I could really like to undergo eye tests also spontaneously in other opticians' shops and then, when I cycled around in another town with glasses on, it was probably the most it to verify the result of the strength of my glasses, it was as optician in Herlev also came up with.

School change, and mind.

After I had stopped at Catholic Central School after 5th grade and had to change schools. The first of the summer holidays, I was invited to a birthday party in Bellahøj, from a schoolmate, where we all had met in their house on Utterslev Torv, for soft drinks and all accessories, and so then we had to the cinema and watch a movie. I am quite sure that I remember that it was a Paw film and we then took all together to the Palace Theatre.

As I sat alone in the tram on the way to this birthday I thought (here, 12 years old, and I had taken my new glasses with, because I had thought to check them in the cinema). There were two more, a boy and a girl in our class who had also been spectacles and walked with them, within the last few years. In this context, I also thought a lot about taking my glasses out of your bag and take them on, but no, they were still there. So now I thought too little of what the optician in Herlev had said to me. Here I suddenly want to try, and I thought also that I am here I had a great opportunity to put on my glasses before I came, and I was not really even a little happy for them, and would then keep them on for birthday and cinema trip, yes, and perhaps afterwards when I got home.

It was also like a single spontaneous desire to show me someone I knew with glasses took over, and here I was not so nervous about having to meet my comrades again after the holidays to the school and be confronted about my need to use glasses, for which I came of course no more. And my schoolmates came not with me, where I lived. Yes, and now I could cost free just tell you that I now have to wear glasses to come.

Although I now may well knew that there was some way to go before I would take them on, and then go with them every day. But the thought still too that when I after the summer should start at the new school, I was probably forced to use them in class, or was it that I had to take them on and keep them on from now. Yes, there flew many thoughts about the glasses around in my head about everything that the optician had said to me, and of course that was also real comfortable enough to wear them, so I could see it that I wanted to. It filled violently much then, yes, and of course afterwards. I'd also really an inner belief that it is using the glasses would hurt me crazy and haunt me forever.

But about a few hundred meters before the house at the village pond, where we were to meet, I took the first glasses where I had to meet some I knew. I enjoyed also really feeling and excitement of both and take them on, while it is to keep them on when I got there, I thought also that it went something; but certainly nice enough to look normal yes everything was great and clear, and there was also some stupid comments from my schoolmates, and most of the boys, all this bed I in me, and I was a little proud of myself over my courage, even though I was sweating something.

Yes, I remember that the mother tried to dampen them down a little, and she said to me that they were neat, and it clothed me with glasses, she asked me if I had just gotten them and if they were brand new? I replied that they were only a few days old and that it was a bit hard so all of a sudden to go with them! But quite good to see normally with them. Some of my companions also seemed to and indicated that it was quite ok that I now wore glasses.

All in all it was not that bad and it was not long with interest in me and my glasses, for he was the one whose birthday it was about.

But what I remember was that the trip into town, to the Palace of Cinema, where we took together off the tram there. "Unbelievable so quickly that I forgot I had them on. "On the trip, had now totally forgotten I had them on, and that perhaps there was a risk of meeting someone I knew on the way there, and inside the cinema, and it felt real nice enough with them. But it did not happen, so white I know, but most was that when we came into the auditorium and sat there, yes, it was lovely to see the advertisements and not least to see the movie, and I thought almost not that I had the glasses on when we went out of the darkness of the cinema again. But the thought came again and anxiety when we reached out to the entrance and the place if I here would meet some outside that I knew from home, or some of my family. And here I most want to take them off, but I thought even that it would have been a defeat for me to take your glasses now since I had done it, to have them on all afternoon and I felt it really really good within myself and enjoyed again the tension, keeping them on, and I think that I still thought that it was just a lot now!

Outside the theater, we said goodbye to each other, and thank you for a good day, and here there was not more talk about my glasses, and then we took off home separately. I kept them on until I came to Husum Station when I came up the stairs to Islevhus way, and I still remember that I had it nice to have them on the day, so I could hardly take them off, and kept them as also to that I had reached through the path system back on to the November road meets Fredrik Sund road, but was still somewhat nervous about meeting someone I knew, both on the train and on the road all the way home, but I had chosen the wagon that was furthest from the end, when it stopped, and thus was the opportunity less to meet some on the way out and up the stairs. Yes, it was a great and exotic experience ...... Yes, again I thought very much about that now I had to keep my glasses on to I came all the way home, because that was not really so bad to have them on, and I I also thought that it is indeed so quickly became a habit for me to have them on, while very relaxing to see everything around me, but no ......

What would my mother, however, say?

I could just have told, if I had kept them on, that I had forgotten to take them off after the cinema and that it really was very nice to have them on! And then told what the optician had told me a few days earlier on the need to use them. And to my rental buddy, a few wells from me after all had gone with his glasses on from the first day he got them, so it was therefore I also have to now! But no, and again no!

After all, how difficult would it be?

However, there was still something in me that pulled up in on that I had and that I had an inner desire to use them now! I used them every day when my mother had gone to work until she came home again. If I went down and took a bike ride, yes of course there was no glasses. But the desire to take them on was maybe not quite big enough yet, but anyway, I took them sometimes with the ride and took them looked at when I had come a good distance away from where we lived.

 So when we shortly after took on the 14-day summer vacation to Hvide Sande at Esbjerg on a campout, and an Inn stay on North Funen, with relatives. Here I had also packed my glasses in my bag. Yes, and my thought was that I should try here to take my glasses on. I had to put them at the top of my bag in eyeglass case! They lay the nearly had always hidden in my backpack or in my desktop drawer at home. At one point I took them also from the case, so that they once again were on top and shone very eye-catching. Yes they could also easily fall out of the bag. And it could so be that my parents would spot them there in the tent, and that they might come to mind that I should not try to take them on, yes I dreamed and thought and hoped real on that here they would say to me right here, that I should take them on, even while they could well see me with them. For they had never done before! The only my mother, very short optician. And then I do not think so much on whether we met some we knew that so far from home. As well as the family we were visiting at the inn on North Funen, was the older people I was not as nervous about the meeting with my glasses on. And then I could "get to" keep them on until we came home again - it was great! And then I had been ready to start school in the new school after the holidays!

I could even have taken initernitivet to take them on when I would see in a magazine, and then get to keep the glasses on subsequent and "forget" to take them off again and walk around outside the tent, and then see to my parents discovered that I had them on! So they might have said that it clothed me with the glasses on, so those found them that I should keep on - But no, this I could not bring myself to, and not of their own volition - just to take them on in my parents' presence, it was too much for me and completely excluded!

I think basically it that dreaded most was that if I took the glasses at once, so then there was no turning back without them in the future, and this I could not even grasp as a boy of 12 years old and I was still all alone around this!

But I had been ordered to take them on, I could not say anything about it, and just do this, for I had terrible need them every day!

When we got home after the holidays I went back the last few weeks of holiday to take my glasses at home when my mother went to work, just before the holidays. I was more courageous to put my glasses completely visible on my desk, and I also got the idea that I might leave my glasses in the bathroom on the shelf under the mirror. But it was only at the thought! Yes, I still hoped that my parents would spot them and ask me to take them on. When my peers so gradually returned from holiday, so was the end of that they lay on your desk during the day! So the evening was the subject up again, so they were ready for the next morning.

I lacked in fact still a intense support and only a push from my parents here about midway through my schooling to get me to use the glasses now, good enough somewhat late, but of course was so necessary for me.

Yes just that they had said sometimes "try, however, to take your glasses on, and why we see you not with them? "Yes, and for several years was reading my mom texts aloud from the TV screen. I said that I did not have time to read the text as fast, but in reality it was that I could not see the text properly. This must be my parents then also have registered? Yes my parents had to go here the time told me that now I had to take my glasses on and see if it was better with them on - and it had definitely been! And now, I had probably gained overcome this, to have them on when my mother and father were in the living room, I would probably have quickly found the courage forward to keep them on.

But once again, no, it did not happen .... To process the 7 week summer holiday with my new glasses and they were constantly in my thoughts.

And still no progress to take them on and then go with them!

Started as after the summer holidays, the new school (Mørkhøj School) very close to where we lived in the 6th grade. As I had thought a lot about, so it was now that it would be a new start! And after my little attempt to birthday in the summer holidays with his glasses on, with the relative good experience for me, so I would definitely start using them in class, and I dreamed also that I had my glasses on in school the last night before I was to start there. But when I sat there without them. Oh dear, here I knew almost everyone in the class from the way we lived on, and they will not you see me with glasses. I tried, however, once reaching my arm into the school bag and take hold of the spectacles, but it was by one study that day. It was to a great many experiments subsequently but with the same result. So my glasses were still lying unused in my satchel, as they had previously done. Yes, and I remember that I had to stand up to tell as the other new class, the school that I came from and where I lived!

I refer again clearly back on how cool it would have been if I had had my glasses on in the summer holidays and continue with it, and when I started there the first day, then everything had been and become much easier for me subsequently, but I had good enough been "him with the glasses" because I was the only one in class when I got there, who had glasses (yes, if I had had them), but I think, of course, certainly now that it had gone much better for me anyway!

I did always notice if there suddenly was no other in the schoolyard who started using glasses. It was like this attracted me, and I thought that just it was I who dared it.

A few weeks after the start of school in the new school, there were two girls from our class who also started using glasses as reading glasses, here told the class teacher of us all, to them they need to see the letters in the books and it was written on the blackboard clearly. They were then asked to get up and go to the blackboard so that we all could see them with their glasses on. There was none of us comrades who commented or talked about this afterwards.

And I sat there and thought that I had indeed course also my glasses in my satchel, but they should at least not up that day. Maybe tomorrow I thought. I felt all the time that I was inflated in the neck around the glasses, but it got me yet not to take them on. Not very long after they went both with their glasses on all the time. After this I had actually often the thought of telling the class teacher that I also needed glasses and I had them in my bag. But that was never done, and my glasses were still not out of the bag, I think in fact that I simply did not dare tell the teacher it and then having to take them on.

This made also here that I constantly felt guilty throughout my school years.

School doctor's, nurse's vision test, I was repeatedly deceived me from, and sometimes I went by myself with my glasses in his trouser pocket, alone in the nurse and said that I had not taken the eye exam along with the other students in the class and took so just glasses and she pointed looked at a few letters and then it was done and fine, and again, it went well every time, and then it was recorded ... How I cheated my way through this test then.

Parent, Mørkhøj School.

I also remember clearly also that every time my mother and father went to the parents' meeting at Mørkhøj School in while I was sitting at home, and I went to bed early, and here I saw the whole scenario for me, to when my mother and dad came home when they had talked with teachers about that maybe I needed glasses, and here they had now discovered that I had never used them in school, and that was why I had a difficult time there, and when they came home they were very angry and disappointed that I did not use my glasses when I now otherwise had agreed that it did, the few times that my mother had asked me. They now have to force me to take my glasses on, as early as the next morning, when they could not trust me. But it did not.

Or yes, I could almost hear and see my teacher (in his sleep) the next day at school, come to my school board and say so loudly, so all my classmates could hear it, that now I take my glasses on I had in my backpack and go to the blackboard so that everyone could see me with them. For it was my parents agreed with her, "Yes, but then afterwards had my trials so was the end." It was really a nightmare for me, but I did not hear a sound when they came home, nor the next day at school! Other than that I was a nice nice and polite boy who had little difficulty in reading and numeracy.

The showing me with glasses on, for someone whom I knew slightly, a new passion for me.

I liked to ride alone to another part of the city when I had time off from school (Brønshøj and Fælledvej neighborhood of Nørrebro) sometimes, and so take my glasses on there. And walk around with them on. Yes, especially in the area where I had started to go to school, and go into the school yard, and where my former schoolmates lived. Yes, and excitement that I should again meet them I knew from there again. This voltage fascinated me crazy, to show me the glasses on them. It happened also that I met some of my former schoolmates, also from the parallel class, which seems that it was strange to see me with glasses. Although even those who had met me for the birthday, where I also had them on.

I had really good about. And it was like it that I wanted to show myself more with the glasses on someone that I knew, more peripheral. I also thought that if I had continued at the school, so I had now gone with my glasses on, and I had not had all those problems anymore, but I had then taken them to the party? Maybe maybe not!

When I was going to the dentist when I could ride there, I took my glasses on in the stairwell before I went in, and this was also about the thrill of whether there was anyone I met or knew someone in the waiting room.

I showed the really good that I was forced to take glasses every time afterwards, when I went to the dentist. For if I suddenly came back without glasses, what would he say? And then I thought, just now is not the dentist or the lady who took the courage to tell my father and mother that I had glasses ... But I never heard anything about. Those that we knew where we lived, spent another dentist who was situated very close to our neighborhood, otherwise I would not have done it.

The same thing happened when I was cut at the hairdresser, who also was a long way from where we lived, so on with the glasses outside and saw a nice feeling to have taken them off, and he put them in front on the table when I had been put in the chair, and then cutting and so when the barber again put my glasses back when he was finished and took his round mirror and went behind me, and then asked if it was ok and I was happy with the haircut ... it was great for me, pay, and back out of the salon and with the glasses ... and then home.

It was also occasionally for a bike ride to the optician in Herlev and tighten the screws in the hinges and directed glasses, and so on on the other side of Herlev to Ballerup. There was then a back road back towards where we stayed, and again I thought a lot to keep them on, but as usual they were taken off before I reached into the "danger zone" to meet some I knew.

It gave me a kick every time I cycled somewhere and took my glasses on. In addition to this, I felt that I had defied and challenged myself, and again it was my very own secret all to myself, and it gave me also an inner satisfaction.

I lived actually a double life throughout my school years, one with glasses hidden, and one without.

First real steps to use my glasses.

After starting in the new school and new glasses Yes, first and perhaps most new optician's clear voice, and with my attempts in the mind along with my former schoolmates during the summer holidays as well as other experiences with my glasses at home and on my bike rides, had I planned to the autumn holiday with my grandmother in the province.

I even planned that I had to take the train alone out there, and here then be picked up by my grandmother at the station. And then the bus rest of the way.

Here I had thought and made the decision that I would take my glasses on the train, and then keep them on throughout the week.

For now it should be!

In this holiday I wanted to try how it would feel to wear glasses all the time. Yes, and try it to wake in the morning and take my glasses on, and then again when I was going to bed at night and then put them on the bedside table, ready for the next morning. If I thought it went well, so would I start school after the holidays with them at all times. I had realized that I never got pulled myself together to not use or take the glasses on in class at school, even while the getting rid of the "ghost" I had in my satchel.

This was a really big decision after they had lain in my school bag since the second day of school. I had long felt more and more pressure to use glasses, especially after I switched to Mørkhøj School!

Especially since it was dark in the air and artificial light could not even give me enough light to see with, and it is that my glasses from the summer holidays was well once again become stronger in strength that nor did it better without them. And here I judged that all my trouble now would end then.

Yes, I had now made the decision!

Here I should of course just have told my mother on the way to the central station that I had to try to go with my glasses on now. First, because all this the optician in Herlev had said to me during the summer holidays on how necessary it was for me to use the glasses now. It gave me while too many problems outside school hours. For she believed suppose also that I still used them in lessons at school?

Yes, I could also tell that the course was that my glasses were the same time increased several times in strength since the visit to the eye doctor for 5-6 years ago, so now it was really necessary for me to try to take them on and go with the glasses on now!

But that would preclude me from it if regretted using glasses, as there had been no return without them.

But then, I do not think about what my parents would say, when they again came the following Sunday, to fetch me home. So I could just answer that it had gone really well, and then continue to keep them on. But I was just so hard to grasp this problem alone and without support from someone close to me!

So nothing was told.

Remember that my mother followed me to the Central Station, Saturday early afternoon after school, and we found it took I was going with.

Wave goodbye, after all, and as soon as the train had started and would hardly left the platform, I took my glasses on. Yes, and I thought now that the next time I saw my mom and dad, so I had the glasses on, the idea was a little cross for me, but thought anyway that would be great to get rid of all my problems and thoughts about the glasses. And there was also the infinitely long time that I was going back home ....

Emergency properly train ride with clear vision and could read my packed leaf, lovely. And at the same time be able to see clearly out of the windows. Look at the people on the train clearly and I felt now at the same time that all looked at me because I had glasses on, and I had a really nice feeling deep down with it.

After barely a few hours train ride came I saw at the destination and I kept them in spite of my nervousness with it, and awaited also very excited, while I also enjoyed this tension, there were some comments from my grandmother, but here I thought I also that I now see ^???????quite clear, glorious!

Here, she offered me welcome on the platform, and then we went to the bus depot and when we went there, I thought it was strange that she had not said anything that I had glasses on, and only then we were quite reached over to the bus that we were supposed to and had put us in it when she first asked,  "Well I see that you've got glasses? "This I replied that I had had it for several years as reading glasses, but the optician had the last time when I got the new glasses in the summer holidays, told that I should go with them in the future, and it was not that bad , I said. Here I was probably a little too cocky and optimistic about the statement that I now wore glasses on the future, because I had to go straight retrieved by my parents and home to my comrades again, for the first time with them. I would probably have told frankly that it was a test for myself, but the plan was well on that when I came home, it was with my glasses on. But I had not thought further ahead than the week and not thought about, if I would not, or did not dare to wear them afterwards, and what the consequences would be, by suddenly taking them off again. The first day I could not imagine anything other than that I would keep my eye on the future, forever. Yes, and so no more about them from my grandmother's side that day. And then a bus ride to the town where my grandmother lived. Here I had otherwise a really good feeling that it went as I had wanted. Yes, I had prepared carefully, while overall the necessary courage, and so now looking forward to a great week and a "new future".

I had there, a holiday playmate who lived next to my grandmother that I visited as soon as I had unpacked. He was a year older than me, and had glasses a few years earlier and went with them from the day he got them. I remember that it was in a summer vacation, where I was on vacation with my grandmother just in the week in which he also started using glasses. I think that basically it was that decided that I would carry out my test just that and that I was probably a little jealous of him because he just took them went with them accordingly. His mother opened the door and said, "oh, you've also got glasses" I answered as I answered my grandmother that I had reading glasses throughout my school years. And now had the optician determined that I should go with them in the future. I enjoyed real that she noticed it. And then said my playmate to me that glasses clothes as also a "Copenhagen Boy" and to them I would then be happy to use, and so at the same time be able to see properly. His little sister thought, and then said that the glasses were nice and they clothed me. I told then that I had the first glasses six years earlier, and that I had not dared to take them on and show me with glasses on someone I knew.

It is understood he really did not; but he said to me, now I had at last been pulled myself together, or forced to use them! But what he did not know was that it was almost the first day I wore them ... such unofficially! It was a really good start this week.

After we had eaten dinner, we called as home to my mother and father, and I told him that I had come well. But I felt and had a strange feeling by talking on the phone with them while I had the glasses on, it was like they looked at me over the phone. I came suddenly to think that if now my grandmother also wanted to talk to my mom and dad, and then told that I had my glasses on. And what would happen then? Here I actually got a really bad conscience and was somewhat nervous, but it did not happen. Yes, actually, it had been really good? So my parents had already been prepared that I had my glasses on when they came to pick me up a week later, and so I did not have to explain it when they came that why I need glasses.

And just think, if I regretted so, then I had to come up with an explanation as to why I had now taken them off, and it might have been much harder for me than to keep them on?

Then I had a really wonderful week and enjoyed right every single day, with all the advantages of being able to see everything clearly and well, watch television, read rates in the city's shop windows and watch people on the street clearly, and something new that I had never done before, was reading the newspaper, for now I could see both pictures and letters. I did not get a single thought about taking them off during the week and enjoyed myself to polish them every morning. Those whom I knew there, some family far away and my grandmother's friends, said not a word about my glasses when we met them in town or they came to visit my grandmother.

Thoughts, where amazingly so quickly that it became a habit for me to have them on, popped up out now and then, here I took them so briefly off and on again! Yes I needed them!

Yes, and one thing I really thought was great was that I could walk into town and to the port and the station alone and walk around and enjoy the sensation of being able to see perfectly normal. And while the fact that I could keep my glasses on when I got back home to my grandmother. There was still no comments about them, other than a few pieces from my grandmother to my glasses were nice and they dressed me, and that I now looked older with them, and so did real good to hear, and I felt here, to my grandmother now had accepted in full, I went with them. Yes, and one neighbor from the road noticed also that I had glasses. I relaxed truly of them on there, and I still dreamed all the time about that when I was back home, so I had them in mid October, and that of course I would wear them when my parents would pick me up the following Sunday. Here I suddenly also the idea and thought that if it were to go wrong at home around my use of glasses at home, because my anxiety was so great to show me with them in there, so it would be great if I could live and go to school with my grandmother, for now I felt completely at ease with the glasses on here, and I felt that everybody knew me in the city. But I thought at the same time that I actually now also did not care what the neighbors, my current school friends and family at home would think and say, so it was probably also the fact that it would be the same when I got home that no one would comment my need for glasses much. I had the really nice to go with them for the week with my grandmother and I enjoyed really much to implement my plan when I got home. Also enjoyed taking my glasses off as the last, when I was going to bed at night, and then, as the first in with them again in the morning. At the same time I thought of my birthday visit in the summer holidays with my old school friends and my other bike tours, which in fact was also really good experiences. I think that all the positive thoughts had preferred to give me strength to carry out this plan after the autumn holidays.

Sunday, came as my parents to get me in the car. They have lunch and drink coffee in the car ride home.

In the morning, I helped my grandmother to make the lunch table in the kitchen and coffee table ready in the living room. About half an hour before they would come, I packed my things in my bag, also glasses were now taken off and packed away ... and I remember the strange feeling I got in my eyes after a week behind his glasses and they completely relaxed eyes and it started to buckle over his eyes and I was also itching eyes. Yes, and the freedom of being able to see everything I wanted was now completely gone. I was just trying to see in one of my magazines and it was like that the text was almost gone, and now felt that my eyesight had worsened; totally unexpected and very scary eyes had already become accustomed to only seeing clearly through the lenses of a week! I also felt that I had marks on my nose where his glasses had pinched a little, and sure enough, when I looked after in a mirror. Here I sat on the bed and thought long to take them on again, for now I felt that I really needed them. Yes I did so, and sat back and thought about all it was great to see, and here I would now "force myself" to keep them on. I fought really an internal struggle here, but as time went by very quickly, towards my parents to come, so I went into the bathroom and looked in the mirror again, and back, but so many times before, I had to take them by because I could not keep them on. I dared simply do not believe actually that I had, and got completely the same feeling that every time I approached our home when I took off his glasses, in my other attempts bike trips to other boroughs, as they were once again packed in my bag ... just a few minutes before my mother and father came! My grandmother said nothing to that I now had my glasses on anymore, when I again came into the kitchen.

What if my grandmother here had said that "You told yourself that the optician had said to you that you should go with your glasses in the future when you arrived a week ago, and what will your parents say to that you took your glasses off, saw them go immediately intervene and take back on that! "My grandmother was otherwise a certain lady who earned respect around him, and it was not to be said against.

Yes, and with that argument, I would probably have done this, for here I had no good plan explaining why I should take them now. And so it had been deep inside himself had dreamed of, but no sorry, not this time! My fear of wearing glasses was victorious once more .... -Very sad!

The unveiling.

My parents came. (They asked, of course, not  about why I did not have my glasses on, yes, and I had them on. So it had probably started a few questions about it that I had them on, and that was also really my thought with this test) and we had otherwise a really nice lunch with small talk, but I also sat and thought a lot of it had now been nice if I had kept them on as we had now had gotten it talked it through , about my need to use my glasses.

Suddenly, when we had come to drink coffee in the "fine" ground, and now jumped bomb. For here was my grandmother a completely different level, and said suddenly, as it obviously was that I had the glasses on when I got on the train and that I had gone with them all week, and I had also told that I had received the message of the optician that I now had to go with them. And why do you have now taken them off this morning? " She asked ". Yes, here I felt now cold sweat like the first day, six years earlier when I was told that I should go with the glasses on all the time. Here I wanted most of all, I was under the couch, and that I had overlooked something I just expected to happen in my testing. And then there was silence, as I remember that lasted an eternity, but then replied my mother " Oh no, eye doctor told us then that they should only be used to read with, and then she said that she could see that I had marks on my nose where his glasses had been sitting. " And also said "that it was conceivable that it was necessary for me to go with them, but we have to immediately look at when we get home."

Here I was again quite hot in the head and I was very embarrassed. But I was wondering again if I had kept them on, I would have avoided this humiliation! I did not say a word, I was just stunned! And then just not talk about my glasses with my grandmother the day. My father did not say a word. And not a single word in the car on the way home on my glasses attempt that I actually had expected. (And deep down also hoped for after I had found myself a little after this revelation) that my parents would take it up on the car ride home, on maybe I really needed to use my glasses all the time. And here I was now otherwise almost ready and willing to take them back if they had told me that I should, now when I still had not gone with them a whole week, I could just as well continue with it ". My mother and father could also immediately after my grandmother detection, have said to me that I should take my glasses back on, so they could see me with them, and then asked me to wear them afterwards. The worst was probably that my parents did not know that I had not used my glasses at any time in the school then and I did not got done the next, the next 3 years.

It was a little strange end to my otherwise so well planned autumn .......

And where was my parents in this context?

If the holiday was connected as my plan was!

"But no ... and I regretted also bitterly when I got home that I just kept them on as I had planned, when my parents came to pick me up. It had so much already from the beginning been a topic of conversation. And I had then been told that the optician in Herlev had said that I had to go with the new glasses on all the time, and now I had pulled the time since the summer break for now, and I had tried this in the autumn, and I felt that I had gotten used to it, and that it was best that way. Yes, and not least that the eyes had grown so quickly that I had them lay in the back of my head. And so it was indeed obviously been accepted, and from there I could control the process! I now had even chosen the "Yes" and then I finally had first had my glasses on when I was with my parents, which of course would have been quite natural from the first day 6 years and 4 pairs of glasses before. And my grandmother who was now also accustomed to seeing me with them, and after a week of getting used to, so it would not have been a really good step for me to not think so much that I had my glasses at home. and the ride home, it had probably not been so bad, but when my father saw to park the car on the road where we lived, and then having to walk up the stairs to the apartment on Sunday afternoon, when it was not completely dark yet! and who would I meeting there? "

"I was suddenly there for the first time how my fear had been greatest for showing me with them. "Yes," And it had certainly been very difficult for me at home, the first day in the morning to take my glasses back on. And then eat breakfast in the kitchen with my mother, but I think probably that that I once had shown me with glasses for my parents, had been enough that it had been much more manageable for me especially at home. So that should go down the stairs and take my bike, the first day after the autumn holidays and cycling to school with glasses and certainly meeting schoolmates on the road, and all the questions, and this to go through the school yard and into class and meet the rest of my school friends there, and here there have been no way back. This had then been the last problem, except that I was going to meet the other family and my parents' friends at a later date; but so had all my vision everyday problems been solved. Perhaps replaced by other problems that I had been teased about my need to wear glasses, and it had probably not taken many days. But great idea, being able to see perfectly.

 I saw a lot of unpleasantness in this regard, and all this, I could not foresee at the time, and I only saw the many negative things about it in my head. Most may not even have noticed that I suddenly wore glasses that I knew! A week after, there had been certainly been quite quiet around me in terms of it.

And what I see today was something that would have been a much smaller problem for me than my subsequent major problems that I had in school.

Imagine if I had already taken me along to just use them in the classroom, in the classroom from the beginning of the school year, and if I had told my closest school friends about my need for glasses. Or that my mother had told the class teacher that I had to use them to read with when I was enrolled in the new school. "Yes", then had all my schoolmates after the autumn break, not focused so much on that I suddenly came after the holidays with glasses, who was the only real solution for me. "

Yes, I could also just have done as optician in Herlev said, and spent the summer holidays to get used to wear glasses before I started in the new school! It had been the easiest solution, second after I already as 6 years old were forced to go with them. I would then at least have completed my mission in the autumn holiday, to keep my glasses on!

The good weeks always goes too fast.

With some thought this was after all an attempt by a 12-year boy, this test that week. That it was a flimsy cry for help that I had been "forced" to use the glasses from now on. Basically I would very well use the glasses, but I could not even make that decision, and I was probably not even quite ready for it yet, and certainly not after the revelation at the coffee table.

Strange that I did not listen more to it that my mother had said, "that maybe it was necessary that I should go with my glasses on? and that we must look at when we get home. "

 No, it was actually not even necessary that my parents had to force me now, for a firm hand on their part to how it should be, I would have been ready at this time ... but that was apparently not perceived by my parents - or wished they actually do not think I should go with the glasses on?

Unfortunately my desire to go with the glasses on, had now suffered a serious blow following the discovery of my glasses trials in the autumn holiday. It was like my courage was completely disappeared to show me with them now, I used them just now when I was sure that I was all alone, and when it was absolutely necessary for me, for example, if I were to see Do some reading on my own room. I stopped up with my small attempts and initiatives that on my bike rides to other neighborhoods that I otherwise liked so much!

As time went on, I got the urge slowly back to using my glasses more and more again! I think that it was mostly out of need and my need for those who recreated this bright!

My mom got a sudden an idea!

I remember, however, once a while after the autumn break my mother asked me suddenly one morning after breakfast. I was about to walk out the door and on his way to school, "whether I still remember to use my glasses in school, and that I may actually also now ought to, or had the best of having them on all the time?  "As she said" I had already tried to walk with them in the autumn holiday and it all went so well! Then, the optician had said that it was best for me to go with them on "I think that it was associated with a slightly older cousin and a cousin who also had made and went with their glasses on now. Why now suddenly the question? Right now, where I was heading out the door? I think really that it had gone up to my parents that I probably needed to go with my glasses on now. after my attempt in the autumn holiday, and optician from Husum had of course also repeatedly told my mother that I had to go with the glasses and the strength increased every time that I got new glasses, so maybe that's why! But here I replied, yes, yes of course I use them in school, and that was fine as it was! Again it was stupid of me not to be honest and start a good talk about, need and my need to use my glasses. But equally foolish to my mother that she kept on saying to me that I had then, and said that we take up in the evening when my father was also at home. - But here I relived the unveiling of my grandmother, a month before. And it caused me to have a fit. Yes, I was wondering if my parents but just quietly at the dinner table one evening had been the talk going on about my needs, and again it that I had had them in the autumn holiday to try them. They could also have asked me why they never saw me with them at home and it surprised them! That my cousin and cousin could go with their glasses, and suggested to me that they think that the time had come for me to go into my room and take my glasses on now. so that they also saw me with my glasses on and then I wear them now, "for all my schoolmates knew already that I had glasses for them, I spent well in school," and so it was not so bad just to take them on and keep them on! Yes and so would my mother just having ascertained that now I also took them on the next morning again before I left for school. Yes however, we had just gotten more talk together about my need to use the glasses, so it had not taken so many years before I had gone with them. This about my glasses had always been something that just tumbled around in my own head and my own world! And then my parents otherwise just tell everyone in our family, and all around us that it really was necessary for me to wear glasses now, it would have been over with quickly.

Yes, I felt that the responsibility for taking the decision, it was completely by myself, and this decision became more and more difficult for me to take the older I became, and I had had and had thoughts about this most of the time in many years to come.

My problems are not minor.

I also remember back on every time that we were otherwise in cottage and relaxing camping trip vacations and lignende.jo we were also on vacation in Italy; Lake Garda by plane, it was big back then in 1964, but 14 years was not a hit to wear the glasses, so still it was without them.

But as usual I always had my glasses in my bag, and almost always had the desire and still dreamed about taking them on when we were far from home.

But I just could not take them on when my mother and father were there.

Only when I had my own room, so I used them when I was behind a closed door, and if I went for a walk by myself, I enjoyed taking my glasses with and then take them on when I was a while away from home or campground. Yes, and why, the anxiety of my parents, I do not know, and it sounds actually very strange, so many years later. I am thinking also, if I wanted to sit in the living room in a chair or couch and could take my glasses on and read a magazine or book. No, it was not. - Because I still could not show me with them on opposite my father and mother!

Weird!

I had an after school job at the local convenience store, where I drove items out in the neighborhood where we lived and I often sat in the merchant's cellar and weighed potatoes in bags until there were some items that should be brought out. Here I need my glasses in order to see what weight showed.

So I had them in a bag lying there in the basement while I was out with goods, and I had them always, the days I was there, that was of course somewhat cumbersome.

I had a job more, helping the janitor to mow lawns, sweeping and shoveling snow in winter, and in vacation time I sold washing coins to the property's laundry, which was a weekly office hours. Here may I also have my glasses with making currency accounts. Of the book, and so until the arrival of a new gone in the basement hallway so it was again of them into the desktop tray, of course it was not quite so easy!

I also remember that I had a manager position where I changed chute bags out of the property, again janitor, also in a vacation time this I did very early morning. There were four blocks of flats, where we stayed in block 1 and I always started in 2, 3 or block 4. Here I could then have my glasses on when I did the work in the half-dark basement! And was there any so early into the basement, then it was to get them by until they were gone, and then on again, it provided excitement for me to wear the glasses so close to where I lived!

When I had to fix my bike, adjust the gear. I like. In our basement, I used always my glasses down there. I had set a rotation lock, so the door could not be opened from the outside. If some of my comrades had to get past, I could always manage to take them and store them away before I opened for them. I also remember that when I came down the basement hallway. So I took sometimes them on there, going through this, to our basement room, it was a fairly long time with decreases from the other wells, and the voltage at the suddenly someone came down in the basement, so I quickly had to take off my glasses, that I enjoyed. It was also very difficult for me and remember to take them up in the apartment again hidden, and so have put them in my backpack or in the desk drawer again. But at one point I took a couple of previous glasses in the basement and let them lie hidden along with some of my tools, it made it somewhat easier for me to have them lying ready for use.

13 1/2 years old and new glasses again

Yes, as almost usual, my mother said suddenly to me that now was the time for new glasses again.

I asked when it would be? Just about the time I was not particularly interested in the glasses, but it had to be overcome!

But then my mother said that I could just run to Herlev one day after school, and order new glasses

For I made it after all so well last time only!

 It was fine, I thought just now she was not going to pay and get the new glasses for then I had something on it!

And it was like I wanted to, I got the money and got the new glasses that looked a bit like the others.

At home, so the same few questions and answers as before!

But still, it was nice enough with new glasses as none other than me saw!

I hated the fact also going to school, partly because I could not see properly and because I also came behind the cause. Was at one point sent 2 days on a dyslexic clinic to get tested for this, and there I was so smart to take my glasses inside the clinic. There was of course not anyone I knew, there was only this special teacher and me.

And here I found that everything was normal with respect to it and back again ... Without glasses again ... and back problems.

Yes, I did know what was needed!

Yes, I remember from a Danish lessons again how we should read some Gothic letters, and I had to read aloud and could not see what was written, and came to a halt. And here whispered my seatmate, "The goat yes it is scarcely credible" and this I said, but the right was the unit, yes ...... and then howled the whole class laughing, yes class teaching too. Then took another of reading up. It was really a defeat for me, but still not enough that I took my glasses on. This made me perhaps than when more stubborn.

I also remember “confirmation” preparation in the church. I could not see the small print of my hymn book and here was about to give up.

At home, I learned a few things by heart, and so I made this part without glasses.

Then I also got the idea right about my confirmation with the family celebration and school parties, when all this was over, then I would then take the decision to use my glasses subsequently, for now I thought it was giving me so much trouble and many difficulties. But no, not this time. While my conscience grew more and more within me.

Another thing that I remember was that my mother once told at home at the dinner table. An office clerk in her department at work, had glasses and she told me that she was so glad now suddenly see the leaves on the trees and the birds sit there and it seems she was great, and all work in the office was also easier when you could see properly. Here could be my parents again have brought my need for eyeglasses and asked about whether I also had to think about going with my glasses on in the future, but not a sound about it. Again, why they never saw me with my glasses on and it surprised them!

"Yes," here I thought it would be nice for me if I could do the same, to go with mine, but I said nothing. It was like the word "Glasses" was a taboo, both in my mouth and the world as words. And just to say it, I really very hard, and I thought it sounded strange when I said "Glasses"

I'm sure that it was here around this time that I suddenly discovered that my mother also had glasses.

She had obviously had it for a long time. Also before I got my first pair, and she had always been forced to use them in her work. And it also taken completely hidden from me.

She also worked before I had started school at a telephone exchange (Nora / Ægir and Taga) in the evening to be home during the day and take care of me until my father came home.

Suddenly one evening she took off her glasses on in the livingroom, and sat and sewed!

Yes, and I would not say anything to it since I discovered it. For it could bring my glasses and needs up again, oh it was dangerous, and now I was 14-15 years old, and I had absolutely no desire now to bring my need on the court at the time of girlfriend and once in teenager time! It was in any case not very smart with glasses right on the time! Then silence about my need for them!

New school changes

After three years at the school (Mørkhøj School) where it did not go so well for me. Yes, and the reason ,I knew best even chose my parents that I had to change schools again. To a private school, Ahms Course in Fiolstræde which lay in the center, and far from the residence, and there was I just turned 15 years old when I started there, with completely new and unknown schoolmates, here I started final of their own free will to take my glasses at all hours from the first day / hour.

This was a good decision for me. It felt not uncomfortable, and quite natural for me and I enjoyed it real to see what I had, and the fact that I had so much to catch up academically. In connection with this change of school was the last time that my mother and father bought and paid new glasses to me and those I bought, even this time again optician in Husum. Yes so I was back there again, where I got the first glasses and this time I had my glasses on, when I should have and choosing new glasses. When I again had to pick up the new, which this time had something new "anti-reflective" so that they did not so much glare. Otherwise, it was now quite routine with a substitution and adaptation, and my old glasses were put in the new glasses case and so out of the store with them, and a small piece away and so with the glasses again.

There was a part of the new school class that I came in, who also wore glasses and walked with them and several had reading glasses, so it suited me very well. And I got 2 years after a reasonably good final exam. (Lower secondary education)

The glasses were however taken by the most breaks and the like, although I often forgot it. (Slightly proven)

I also remember from the time that I once to a school party in school. Kept my glasses on the entire school day. When I came back to the party in the evening, I had again taken them on. Here again as a test for myself, and expected that someone would comment that I had them on, but not a single sound on them. All there, they knew me well also most, where I had the glasses on during school hours. I felt it as nice enough to have them on both dance and socialize; but most probably it to look really good, but obviously not enough to take the plunge fully and keep them on all the time then, now as 15 years old. A home where I lived I had had all my friends and girlfriends and they should certainly not see me with glasses on! Yes, and then back home to them and known issues, and I had difficult to always follow my friends' knowledge, when I saw the same thing when we were together.

I could as I said, like to wear them when I was at school and eventually became of it for the entire school day. It was like that I also spent time after school to go around the city to extend the time with the glasses on, and on the way to and from school, train, tram and bus or on my bike; but as soon as I approached our home as they were still taken off again.

Six months before I changed schools to Ahms course, I had a girlfriend who was sister to one of the girls in our class at Mørkhøj School. I came with for over a year. She did not stay with her sister, but with his grandmother. I remember a few months after we had stopped to get along, I suddenly met her on the train on the way home from school where I could not reach to take off my glasses when I discovered her, so I've definitely worked something confused. She smiled and said that it was as nicely with glasses to me. I got awkwardly said that I really had not and wore glasses, but it was a little hard to explain away! There she saw something doubtfully at me and said that she had thought of. And could well remember that I might not see as well, because she had noticed that when we watched television with texts and other things, then got I do not anything with ... and then it was very well that you could get glasses when you have need. Yes, it was a revelation that shirked, and somewhat embarrassed, I was too, but subsequently held that me from continuing to use my glasses at school, to and from it. The idea that I should care a little more on subsequent I had.

Yes, and not very long after I met her again, this time on the way to school one morning on the train, here she said nothing more than, "Well, it's good that you have chosen to use your glasses now? "I answered simply," Yes, a little more ", and so no more about them, and then just chat. Although it chocked something in me again "once more taken with glasses on." Yes, what would she have thought? Would she tell all of them that we knew that she had met me with the glasses? I noticed, however, never anything about it. It was not as bad as the first time, but anyway!

The year after I bought himself new glasses again optician on the small square that was between Fiol Strait and Nørregade just across Nørre Port Station. It was great that I was now able to determine the price and time. I mean it was black plastic glasses. It was also there that I bought my first sunglasses, also black with very dark / black glass, so you could hardly see the strength of the glasses, it was here that I began to use them when I took my normal glasses, on the way home from school the last stretch home. It looked a little silly to wear dark sunglasses in the rain.

But I was still more brave again and got closer to where I lived before I took the right glasses.

It was still not because I did not like to wear the glasses, no, not at all, and I still enjoyed the thrill of whether I should meet someone who knew me while I had them on.

But again, that show me with them on, it was what lay deep in me that I did not like. Why, I know still do not.

I had a school friend from school who lived in Elsinore and there I was once on weekend visits with him. We went to his home directly from school, on Saturday afternoon. Here still like 16 years old, I had my glasses on the weekend when we were in town Saturday night. It was also a good enough experience for me, once again, and once again they were taken out of when I Sunday night approached me where I lived. Yes, I took every opportunity to take my glasses on when I was in another part of town or a completely different city. But my sense, however, had been taken over so much that I when I'd see something important, but only in conjunction with the school context, and of course when I read homework in my room behind a completely closed door. My glasses were then using, always put in a drawer / satchel / tucked away when I was done with these things, and then the door opened again.

So all traces were erased around my glasses!

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Images from my school, there is not one where I have glasses on.

Apprenticeship.

Since the school was completed took my mother out that I could get an apprenticeship at the company where she was employed, DISA. but this I did not because I knew so many from our area who worked there, and I was of course fully aware that I could not do without glasses at an electronics workshop, for that kind of work. I wanted real self that I would apprenticed as an electrician, for there came one more round of different customers! Another neighbor came with an offer of an apprenticeship in Frederiksberg, which I so chose.

I came as an apprentice electrician, where I started at 6-7 weeks of technical schooling, and here I used wisely my glasses on throughout the school day in the period.

And so the following four periods of schooling distributed throughout the learning period of 4.3 years. And then with intermediate internship with master, and again here with glasses on and when I had to work and remember here that I once sent to the customer in the shop where I knew the owner, it was he who had given my apprenticeship. I had feared and predicted that this would happen at some point. It was one of my parents' friends and children had been my playmates. They lived in nearby stairwell to where we lived. Here was I doing the job, which of course I also was forced to use my glasses to cope with the task, like so many others. I thought I did not like to take my glasses inside the store. So I chose to take them in while I was on the way there, and then go with them, oh then. It felt like a really long going in the door to their business, and then into ... and there was not a single comment about my glasses, and even then when we met at home, where I obviously did not have his glasses on.

Thinking once in a while that if my parents had immediately followed optician's advice that I should take the glasses from the first day when I got them, then had my schooling and my relationship with goggles been quite normal and nothing I felt that I should cheat me to use when I was myself. But very strange that my parents did not follow up on whether I use them or not, when they anyway bought new for me regularly of their own free will, and they repeatedly were told by the optician that the glasses had I really need to go on.

Yes such a course of my youth with glasses on and off.

Driving license.

In the middle and late 60 s's, it was there that it started with some used very dark sunglasses with strength and I took advantage, as previously stated in between. The glasses were now plus 5.5 so I had now really need to wear glasses at that time too. In the spring, I should have a driving license for car and here I also had a dread of that was to stand in my license that I had to wear glasses when I was driving. I thought if I took my prescription sunglasses on and told the doctor. (A special doctor who made special licenses will check the "assembly line" on Vesterbro Torv, instead of our own doctor.) To the statutory medical examination, that I had a sty at the moment and therefore I used sunglasses to dim the lights, and it went, I saw perfectly through my strength sunglasses and was driving without remarks about having to drive with glasses ... I also used the sunglasses when I had driving lessons driving instructor and the final driving test. - Awful ... Even today, almost 50 years later, is still not that I must use the corrected glasses or contact lenses in connection with the drive.

Leisure.

When we went out on a Friday / Saturday night with friends, so it was always without my glasses. I was totally convinced then, that I never found a girlfriend if I had glasses on. At the same time knew even my closest friends is besides a few learn comrades still not that I needed glasses, I think. Yes, I also remember a weekend in Southern Jutland with my learning buddy, where we drove by car to Aarhus on Saturday and in the evening where we had planned a night out, here I had my glasses on throughout the day and it was also quite ok. And we also had a trip by car to Stokholm also a weekend where I took my glasses on because I also had to drive the car part of the way, yes, and so I kept them on until we drove off the ferry Sunday in Elsinore.

Yes, I tried to still try to have my glasses on, but still could not take a final decision to go with them on all the time, and I felt suddenly that it does not clothed me with the glasses on.

Around when I was 17 or 22 years old, I had several girlfriends who had and wore glasses, and here I tried still occasionally use my glasses when we were in the cinema and watched television in the rooms, but never when my or their parents, or other comrades were present. They seemed also that I was strange that I just went with them on all the time ... And here from my youthful days, nor is there a single picture where I have my glasses on. Today with Smart Phones, I probably could not fail to have pictures where I had them on, and it had perhaps made it easier for me then!

Finally, the right decision.

23 year old and after I was trained and I had started a new company and had subsequently read on, here I decided that now was the time end up not using the glasses all the time, but only new glasses ... I did this because I had received several hints from my friends. Train as always the old in glasses and looked into the optician in the area where I had worked as an apprentice, he was one of our customers where I had been learning.

I had sometimes helped him with some work in his private home and cottage, so we swapped my work with new glasses several times in my apprenticeship. He had always known me with glasses on, but what he did not know was that I only used glasses on of the work and never at home and at leisure. He suggested me also that I should use plastic glass. Then were the glasses lighter but they actually looked more thick, but they were safer to wear for work. When I now have to go with them on solid, and was about to read further, I would like to have the glasses would look so thin out as possible, that meant the weight is not so much for me then. I thought at the same time that my eyesight was best with real glass lenses so it was for.

he went on to adopt a new vision test and I chose new glasses which was also the most expensive that I could choose at that time, which I could then collect small 14 days later.

He always told me that I really needed the glasses and not long after I had started school again, he had to make a pair of reading glasses to me, so I could see fractions and very small things on drawings and before I was 30 year old, I had glasses with built-read field.

I felt then that the time passed very slowly when I now had taken the decision that now I would go with the glasses on all the time. I maintained my decision and I felt very nice, feeling and a relief by keeping them at the time I could pick them up. I really enjoyed the trip home by train and bus, and now all the way home. To my surprise, there was no feedback from colleagues, friends, girlfriends or family when suddenly I came with glasses on. Only a few friendly remarks about it was neat glasses I had received. A few comments about how I was able to see without the past, when I suddenly had and went with such strong glasses. (Yes, and I could not) I may have to tell that I had been wearing glasses for many years. My parents did not mention my new glasses, and my need for them with a single word ... nothing more than they had noticed that I now wore glasses and they were nice!

Since that day I have always been very happy with my glasses and enjoy still getting new glasses as often as finances permit this.

It is not until many years after I've been wanting, to tell my parents what they had done to me. But they are both passed away many years ago, so I do not have the opportunity to tell them what they actually has exposed me as a child and teenager, Yes and for myself I could just have taken the glasses on when I now need them so much in my school and also outside it. However, this may of course definitely be a parental providing children use the tools as they need.

Now I have almost 45 years! With glasses every day since, and this I have never regretted it ... The glasses are now relatively strong and astigmatism as well as extra reading acuity in both eyes, yes and totally indispensable.

The greatest barrier has certainly been my mother and father, in connection with my need to spend and go with my glasses on time.

Think me throughout my childhood and youth lived alone with the "trauma" not being able to see, as others because of my parents'. lack of consistency (vanity) to say to me the first day when the optician said, that the glasses you need and those you obviously have from now on. and then there was maximum gone a few days, it would have been quite natural aid, the rest of my childhood and youth time, and it had certainly given me some very better opportunities afterwards, with regard to my recent training ... like my playmate from neighboring staircase, which today is a specialist. Of course, he could also be smarter than me. - :)

I really do not know whether my mother was trying to protect me from the Optician. For she may fear and terror in my eyes when the optician told me to go with them, and that was in fact a "Bears service" she did for me back then, by saying that it was only reading glasses I had been eye doctor! As the only really was her own interpretation of what he had told us!

Also think that it is strange that so many years after all this is so clear to me, about my need for glasses in my childhood and youth time. It must really have affected me and filled very much back then. Think of all the energy that is lost, because of the time I spent taking attempts to use the glasses. and all thought thoughts to no avail, had the time been used for contemplation and other enhanced skills in the most important time of a child's life and development, so what did it not have given me and led since then?

Yes, and I'm sometimes, see "pictures" of myself. That I would look like 6-23 years old with glasses, and my life seen through the lenses here as a happy boy. And my whole school career as a rewarding experience, instead of the gloomy memory I have the fear and anxiety of having to show me with glasses on, and all the memories that I am above only described the individual events from, from the days of long ago ... without glasses

Thank goodness, then parents today, more enlightened and of course with that you have to do everything for their children's well-being than 50-60 years ago ... Today, I am quite sure that you will call the kind I have seen for neglect!

Consider also that this tale has become for some 20300 words and fills 27-28 A4 pages. One might think it a waste of time to write such a story, but that I have experienced the time! Everything that I've remembered and the trouble I went through as a child and young.

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